Second anything?

Someone once said that instead of looking for someone we can live with, we should rather look for someone we can’t live without. Where is the truth in this? How can we know if we can’t live without somebody if the chance never presents itself?

All of us enter relationships with the hope of finding the perfect somebody, and a few months and a set of broken plates later we realize that it’s not all it’s cracked up to be and we start doubting our feelings and sometimes the lack thereof. What then?

By the time you realize the there is no better somebody out there, it’s too late. Then there come the “what if’s” of the world and you end up with more questions than a four year old who first hears about the birds and the bees. The chance of making big mistakes, such as begging for forgiveness and second chances, are as high as fireworks on the 4^th of July.

I don’t know anymore. Is the person next to you worth trying so hard? What if you’re missing out on something you haven’t found yet?

So many questions, so little answers.

Bottom line is there is no right person but there is a right now. Most decisions we make in life are totally fucked up and the minute we make them, we know it. Some give regret its 15 minutes of fame, some don’t, but in the end it never matters, because what’s done is done. If you’re lucky enough you get a do over, but if you’re like me, you might never have the guts to actually take that chance.

It seems like we always want what we can have, and the minute we get closer to what we thought we wanted but couldn’t get, we don’t want it anymore. We are such indecisive creatures.

I wonder who can say, without lying to him/herself and all the ones listening, that they have what they want, and there is nothing else they could want. Nobody I know, that’s for sure.

So then you think about second chances and their worth. Is second time around any different? Where do second chances end? What’s the point? Maybe faith was trying to tell us that there is something more out there, and our experience is over. We’ve learned our lesson.

So many thoughts and not enough people who are willing to be true to themselves and the ones next to them.

Have the guts to be truthful to yourself.