A lonely weekend full of people ?!

So, this weekend i hope to have some time to myself. I’m not sure why, since all week i was by myself. On Saturday, once i started cleaning and stuff, i actually noticed that i have plenty of stuff to do around the house (mostly throwing stuff out) and i could keep myself busy. Too bad people already planned their weekend at my house.

So Ramona and the kids came over on Saturday, and every time i spend more than a few hours with them, they make me not want to have kids (jk). They’re adorable and i love them, but the fact that they do whatever they want, and they don’t listen until you’re actually in their ear, threatening them, just gets to me. It is frustrating as hell to see a 5 year old kid totally ignoring you. You’re powerless.

We managed to get away from the house for a few hours (Ramona and I) and when we came back, the house looked post Katrina; clean up was in order before bed time. I think it would drive me crazy to see them throw stuff on the floor, and I’d be constantly behind them picking stuff up. I guess i say this now, and later, motherly instinct or laziness, or “i don’t care” will kick in and I’ll be fine with it.

On Sunday my mom’s friends came over with grilling meat and drinking intentions. They spent the whole day with us, and it wasn’t as bad as i expected. They kept most of their stupid ideas to themselves, and i didn’t get too agravted. One thing they said, that i just have to mention, is the fact that they believe that the US is just going to print more money to get out of debt (yeah, i had tears in my eyes).

Even though my house was full of people for the whole weekend, i still felt lonely as hell. Every time i go somewhere i seem to notice all these happy couples everywhere, and i get such a craving for a relationship that i would marry somebody tomorrow, just to assure myself the constant company. Ironic things is that a few months ago i had somebody, and i didn’t like it. So now, do i want it because i can’t have it, or because only now i realize what i had, or is it because i need some time to get used to my single self? I wish I’d new so i could stop obsessing.

Another week, more time to just be.