The state of the End

I think I saw the end.

Two yellow eyes were looking through my soul. I could feel them open up every locked door within me. They paralyzed me. I couldn’t move or think, all I could do was to let them drain me of all my thoughts, my fears, my needs, and my wants.

If I would’ve felt something, I imagine I would’ve felt pain and anguish die away. I would’ve felt relief and hollowness like never before. If I could’ve thought, I would’ve thought about the power of nothingness, about the gift of eternal ignorance. If I could’ve spoken, I would’ve shouted those eyes a million thanks.

I couldn’t do anything. All I did was nothing.

Have you ever yearned for ignorance as you do for your every day breath?

I have.

Frustration!!

So, today my yahoo webmessenger is not working. It’s ridiculous. My one pleasure when I’m at work, well besides reading a great book once i have some time, is not working today. I followed the guidelines to fix it, but it didn’t want to fix itself. IT sucks!!

Yesterday people at my work more or less told me that I NEED to be here as long as possible. If it were up to them I would work until my ass would have to be on the plane. Yeah..forget that. Depending on how my mood will fluctuate in the next weeks, I will decide if I can stand it here for an extra week.

On other notes, there are 6 weeks left until i step on Romanian soil again. Pray for me.

And Ioane, a blog is supposed to be personal, not abstract. If I want to read abstract, citesc Biblia D-le.